The Job Description

Well...it has happened - love has entered my life again. It is different this time from the others and I'm not sure how to describe it yet. It just feels differently than the others. It isn't scary or needy or one-sided or abnormal - it is just there. I truly believed that it was utterly elusive to me and that I would likely never find it again, if I had ever really found it before...but here I am - in it.

Why is it that we 'fall' in love? That would imply that there is a leaping off, or a stumbling into, but it isn't like that at all. It is a building of love, just like a construction site, in that you need to have supplies - like caring and understanding. You must have a solid footing or foundation to build upon. That's what I am trying to do this time. I'm not rushing nor do I feel rushed. I am building something that will withstand the passage of time, the storms of the ages, and will still be standing straight and strong even after I am gone.

He is a lovely man, who has touched my heart, not so much with what he says, but with what he does. The little things, that you would likely not even notice, are the ones that I cherish. I have never been into grandiose gestures or lavish gifts, but do something thoughtful and I am yours for life. For instance (and there are so many), the way he reaches for my hand when we are walking or the smile on his face when he sees me - those moments can't be fabricated - they are real.

He has a saying that he uses regularly when I say thank you to him for doing something - he says "It's part of the job description", and by saying that he means that I don't need to thank him for doing something...but I do. He has no idea how thankful I am for him. How thankful I am for having met him. How thankful I am that he is in my life.

If I were to write a job description, I would ask for a man with integrity, honesty, compassion, understanding, passion, intelligence and most of all wit. He meets all my requirements and some I didn't even know I required.

So...thank you Mr. Compassion for being in my life and letting me 'fall' in love with you. It isn't frightening at all when you have a warm, soft, safe place to fall.